I Can Lie Tonight (Poem)

Today’s prompt is drawn from an idea that Kelsey Howard gave me — that of a poem that tells a lie. I think you could have a poem that’s all lies (that could be very funny — full of things like “the sun is the size of a nickel”) or a poem that steadily builds to telling one big whopper. I can imagine these being very poignant, or very much like goofy shaggy-dog stories. I suppose it all comes down to what you want to lie about! -from NaPoWriMo blog

I pine for you still and I don't wish you the best.
I see your happy life and it makes me sad.
Wondering what it could have been with you and me
Wandering into sadness again about how it all went wrong.

I'm not over you yet; I still want you to come back to me.
I'm not glad you're happy or that someone can make you so.
I never came to that wonderful moment that I stopped thinking about you.
I've not wished you well in quite some time.

Still, I can't say I think about you all of the time;
There are times when life provides chores, errands, and dragons to slay.
I think that you were completely wrong, though, and I have no I'm sorrys to say.
I have no regrets when it comes to all of that; I did the best I could and that is that.

I can't lie tonight and I say it all went right;
I regret having met you and I wish I never had.
You didn't make my life better or provide me with any fun.
My life isn't a little better just for having met you; I'd say it's a wash, and the pleasure only equaled (never surpassed) the pain...

I've wished that I could lie and my wish has now come true.
If the truth is to be known, I've left behind the blue.
I've managed to move on from you, and that is simply true.
But can you trust me after I've lied? I've stopped lying now, but can you believe?
The stanza before this one is the last to deceive.